To say I didn’t want to go out tonight would be an understatement. My body was itching to go but my brain wanted no part of going out. Since I needed to get out today to meet my consistency goal for the week I decided to take the dog with me on my run. Panda is a good enough dog. She is still under a year and needs to mature a bit. She isn’t the best running partner. That is my fault and not hers as I’ve not taken the time to leash train her to heal. So on our (very short) run she’d cross infront of me and I’d trip over her. She’d suddenly put on the breaks when she sees a millipede on the road. It was just small things like this that made for a frustrating adventure. I’m claiming only 1 measly mile.
I got home and pondered this burn out that is creeping upon me. A few things crossed my mind. First, I doubt I’ll make it the 100 miler that I signed up for. My mileage is in the crapper and I’d have to be very committed in order to reach that goal.
I’m both glad/sad coming to that realization. When I signed up for the race I searched for a training plan that would fit into my schedule. What I didn’t realize is how much of life I would have to give up in order to meet that schedule without it affecting the normal routine of the family. To fit in my family’s routine, my training runs would have to be between 4-6 AM or post 9 PM. This was working for awhile…a very short while. I went to bed earlier and cut back an hour or so every night on sleep. I was really surprised to find out that hubby didn’t like this new routine. He actually likes having me sit next to him in the evening and watching old Law & Order episodes with him. For him, that was quality time and my early to bed was cutting that out. I think in his eyes my training had taken priority over him.
I think I’m going to have to give up my 100 mile goal until my kids are a bit more self sufficient. I’m a bit bummed about that. So as a new goal I’ll find a 50 miler and sign up for that. Those are doable and take up less training time. I need to do one redeem myself for my awful finishing time at the Boogie Races.
I think what I’m feeling now is a bit burned out, let down, and disappointed with myself. Yesterday my Trail Runner Magazine arrived. Would you believe that there is an article on “How to stay motivated for Training and Racing”. Ever notice how sometimes things show up exactly when you need them most?
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